Fear controlled my life for a long time. It is one of my biggest insecurities that I still deal with. Usually, it's when I am not spending time with God. In times of fear, I used to think the following things about myself. I am a failure. I am not good enough. I am worthless. I tried my best and it wasn't good enough. Nobody loves me unless I am successful. I will never stop struggling. Is this punishment for something I did? This is a dangerous game, God says. I used to believe these things about myself. I believed them deep down in my soul. It was because I didn't know what God said about me or to me in the Bible. Those vicious thoughts taunted me, abused me, lied to me, and manipulated me until I was so broken I couldn't hear the voice of God. I couldn't hear Him if all of the noise was drowning Him out. Before I finally heard from Him, I started seeking help in worldly ways. I did a lot to numb the emotional pain of not being good enough ...